that its been months since i told you how i felt nd those feelings still haven’t gone away? sure they’ve faded a bit but not much. i hate this. i hate how humans always want what we cant have and dont want whats right in front of us. the things we really want aren’t good for us but the best things for us we dont want. i wish he could see the real me. that looks didnt matter… but sadly they do. i wish he could see how much i care about him and how every time i look at his picture my heart skips a beat… ughhh why cant i find someone who will love me for me? or even like me for that matter? whats wrong with me? i see couples together and all those questions run through my head… i want it to go away. i dont want to have to think about it everyday… i wish i was alone sometimes… where no one could get to me… where i could just be by myself with music and nothing else… serenity….